I was driving two thirteen year old boys around Wellington last weekend when one of them asked me to play P!nk. Teenage boys. P!nk!! He wanted to hear So What. This is obviously not that song! I threw on P!nks Greatest Hits…So Far!!! album, and suddenly remembered (as if I could forget) just how awesome she is as an artist. Three days this week I’ve woken up with this track in my head.
I’ve had a fun couple of months diving deeper into how my brain works, reflecting on how the last four and a half decades have been affected by ADHD and starting work on the many, many facets of my day-to-day life. I’m enjoying being me for the first time in… forever. Suddenly finding this song stuck in my head is really interesting, because it’s a song about being your own worst enemy. This isn’t something I can relate to right now, but I can absolutely relate to when looking back over my life to date.
My teachers didn’t date me, I don’t think my parents hated me and I’m fairly sure I’ve never been compared to damn Britney Spears – but some days I didn’t want to be me. Most days I was absolutely my worst enemy – fighting against all of the things I needed to do or to be. It’s good to listen to this song now and be able to say “I wanna be my friend”.
I like me. I’m happy to be me. I feel proud and privileged to be me.
My ADHD Playlist 